I was suppose to b on my bed, having presentation later at 10.mind is in a mess. Did not pass up my 1st Int Marketing asgmt, tht was months but I did pass up de rest. I totally got "trap" in myself. I cant let go the fact i've been btrayed by my own fren,BITCH.She even sent me a smile wishing me Hapi bday.She did not post on comment coz she dun wan ppl know she sent me smthg. Worst, Pink n wan xin oso nvr send me a bday msg o whteva! a simple msg will b sweer enuf but it turns bad. Honestly, the overall i'm not happy.seems like something still pinching me, heart feel sour, brain feels numb. how I wish i could end my PT job now. For de sake of RM100 extra i delay my service. Received msg frm Grace jst now, asking me to work at c u 2 9 PUB! n oso DV8, a place nobody want to b coz all malay ppl! She knows i dun wana wrk PUB n now she wanna torche me!according to schedule i was suppose to hv class bt lecturer shifted it to Wed tht's y Fri no class but I tild Grace I have class on Fri, coz I know things like this Shit will happen!Working in Pubs!
After receiving Grace's msg, my mind totally got infected with negatives thinkings. Not I wanna kill some1, just felt speechless! Oh, i realise i did not do well for my comm n negotiation! I fucked up all my asgmt this time.I dunno y, resign frm my job is a good decision o else i think i'll get 0 Flat for my GPA! i really hate grace coz she's stupid n heartless.She knows tht i got betrayed yet she acted stupid n let me have the blame,a leader like her, can go to hell! Kenix...this bitch goona get from me soon, unless she resign fast.I'll c how wealthy she is since she said if she got marry to a guy, the tarot says she will b a wealthy woman!V'll See!
Ppl write blog to share something happy but i always in revenging mood. ow could I get this off..I know i'm kinna sensitive at times, n bad tempered but i tried to control.... but shit stil happen to me. I'm good o bad i still will get the blame... Why?
Friday, August 24, 2007
Sunday, August 19, 2007
Went to watch Rush Hour 3 on my bday, it was funny. Recommended if a person is really down just like me. The whole week i was in trauma, thinking of my job n studies n financial n of course my future career! I just dun understand why a PT job like that could make me think so hard n feel so upset bout it?! Even on my bday i dun feel happy at all. i forced myself not to think anyting related to Bacardi o Dewars o whtever liqour. Hw n I went for japanese restaurant. I choose there coz all F&B i can get 50% off! so the total bill was only RM40. amazing wasn't it? i ate my fav salmon fish, soft crab shell, teppanyaki, steamed egg(delicious!). i know Hw was trying his best to make me happy n comfortable on my day. And i was trying my best too.
But 1thing undecided is to resign my PT job or continue IF they will put me at a better outlet. I know i wil get attracted if they offer to send me back to BED Club o any outlet that could make money.I got many advices that try convince me not to cont' wif this job.Nothing seems benefited me except $$. Even my mom was relief after hearing say I wanna resign this job! I think she's been worrying bout my safety since it require to work till Max. 3am! Then got to go home alone.But actually Hw fetch me to work n i stay in his house. My concern is always $$. I wanna find as much as i could to give better living for both my parent.especially my mom, her pair of hands is as rough as the tar road surface. I pray so hard that GOD could bless me to be success n repay their sacrifices... they've been my guardian angel, without my parents I wouldnt b here....I just hope GOD treats everyone fair n I hope GOD hear my prayer everytime I make my wishes.
I plan to tell grace that I wanna resign by 31 Aug.yet, undesided now... I dont know what will happen if i resign n...huh so much to think. What Albertus n Adeline said was true...try focus on what i really want n most important to me. Yeah its true... I think i do not have strong determination that is why i am stil undecided! After my job i accidently met my old skolmate!PRIMARY mates!! one of them called Pui san as well, immediately she took out her mobile n called my other skolmate just to ask them come over my outlet n look at me. what a bittch! she was laughing while calling my frens. stupid bitch! i got so emotion on this situation coz i din wan anyone to know yet its broken from the hidden.
Later nite i will go home to have dinner with my parents.It was my first time my dad ask me to have my bday dinner together, i guess he knows i broke up with klang boy. To him, mayb it was a waste coz he was the only guy that my dad really chat with however, i think it was a great memories coz i grew from his experiences. I think other than Hw, My parents n MONEY is most important to me...i dun wanna think of marriage or kids until my real destiny comes... but I hope GOD will see what i've gone through n will bless me with a good living n happiness in future... so tired now...sleep ar...nitez little bloggy!
But 1thing undecided is to resign my PT job or continue IF they will put me at a better outlet. I know i wil get attracted if they offer to send me back to BED Club o any outlet that could make money.I got many advices that try convince me not to cont' wif this job.Nothing seems benefited me except $$. Even my mom was relief after hearing say I wanna resign this job! I think she's been worrying bout my safety since it require to work till Max. 3am! Then got to go home alone.But actually Hw fetch me to work n i stay in his house. My concern is always $$. I wanna find as much as i could to give better living for both my parent.especially my mom, her pair of hands is as rough as the tar road surface. I pray so hard that GOD could bless me to be success n repay their sacrifices... they've been my guardian angel, without my parents I wouldnt b here....I just hope GOD treats everyone fair n I hope GOD hear my prayer everytime I make my wishes.
I plan to tell grace that I wanna resign by 31 Aug.yet, undesided now... I dont know what will happen if i resign n...huh so much to think. What Albertus n Adeline said was true...try focus on what i really want n most important to me. Yeah its true... I think i do not have strong determination that is why i am stil undecided! After my job i accidently met my old skolmate!PRIMARY mates!! one of them called Pui san as well, immediately she took out her mobile n called my other skolmate just to ask them come over my outlet n look at me. what a bittch! she was laughing while calling my frens. stupid bitch! i got so emotion on this situation coz i din wan anyone to know yet its broken from the hidden.
Later nite i will go home to have dinner with my parents.It was my first time my dad ask me to have my bday dinner together, i guess he knows i broke up with klang boy. To him, mayb it was a waste coz he was the only guy that my dad really chat with however, i think it was a great memories coz i grew from his experiences. I think other than Hw, My parents n MONEY is most important to me...i dun wanna think of marriage or kids until my real destiny comes... but I hope GOD will see what i've gone through n will bless me with a good living n happiness in future... so tired now...sleep ar...nitez little bloggy!
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
45 minutes
on 14Aug i received an sms...unexpected sms!!!MY DAD!!! he sms me to wish me happy bday!!OH MY GOD!!! it's 1st time ever...i was so touched n appreciate his wish.But wht happen today makes me unhappy again! i accidently deleted my dad sms coz i put in my bag i forgot to keylock!but then the wish has been crafted in my heart! I love my dad so much!Of course my mom also...both of them equally important to me...
well another 30minutes to strike 12am!!! 16August 2007!! i will b older by 1yr!i hope i could be young forever! i really hope 1 day i could b prettier n sexy and attractive... :P
tomolo i got to go college settle the event...thn meet up some big staffs for the weekend PT work...RM50 p/day only thn settle assignmentsz....it seems like bday is no more an big event to me...so common!
Hopefully can get bday gift...i din receive bday gift ady....
well another 30minutes to strike 12am!!! 16August 2007!! i will b older by 1yr!i hope i could be young forever! i really hope 1 day i could b prettier n sexy and attractive... :P
tomolo i got to go college settle the event...thn meet up some big staffs for the weekend PT work...RM50 p/day only thn settle assignmentsz....it seems like bday is no more an big event to me...so common!
Hopefully can get bday gift...i din receive bday gift ady....
Saturday, August 11, 2007
Experiences tells who r my true frens....
This month is not a good month for me...things happen like shit, ppl bitchin bout me whther nt of jealousy, haterous, revenge... n all this aura makes me grow taller. Maybe all those shit sound very evil, but think at another edge, hey without them i wont learn a lesson n wont b able to gain something from me. This shows the fact the the real world is cruel n only the "smart" will survive! i really learned this time after summarizing all my experiences...true frens is not only a term given based on short term relationship...but only given when someone really cares n love when u r down n in need...
2days having insomia...living in clueless world!can't think of a solution n i find myself so useles...on that time i thought of my frens....but who r my frens?where r they....no where!no one!They only appear when i have value to them.Mayb i have ppl bside me that i could say they r my frens but not best frens.now i have 2 person that i could say they r my best fren n also bro+sis!ADELINE n ALBERTUS!
both of them r like my bro+sis.they r the one that thought me how to socialize n learn to b in part of the society. they r very positive person. Adeline said she has been in my shoes' b4 that is y she always explain o teach me from her experiences. she nvr felt tired of guiding me along the way... n she make sure she will holds my hand n nvr fall apart. Even Albertus, he is a man with great knowledge of life.although his interpretation not as good as Adeline but his advice is straight forward.These 2days i learn from their advice. they gave me so much of guidance that makes me wake from my fairyland.Without them i think i'm still in my maze n mst probably i might leave this world...i'm sick of being bully n blamed!I really thankful for their love n care. After finishing my onversation with adeline this noon, i m more clear with my life.It might b difficult for this 6month but it will not b long...the world is round,what goes around comes around!
got to work later again...hopefully get to open some bottles so i could maintain my future life!
2days having insomia...living in clueless world!can't think of a solution n i find myself so useles...on that time i thought of my frens....but who r my frens?where r they....no where!no one!They only appear when i have value to them.Mayb i have ppl bside me that i could say they r my frens but not best frens.now i have 2 person that i could say they r my best fren n also bro+sis!ADELINE n ALBERTUS!
both of them r like my bro+sis.they r the one that thought me how to socialize n learn to b in part of the society. they r very positive person. Adeline said she has been in my shoes' b4 that is y she always explain o teach me from her experiences. she nvr felt tired of guiding me along the way... n she make sure she will holds my hand n nvr fall apart. Even Albertus, he is a man with great knowledge of life.although his interpretation not as good as Adeline but his advice is straight forward.These 2days i learn from their advice. they gave me so much of guidance that makes me wake from my fairyland.Without them i think i'm still in my maze n mst probably i might leave this world...i'm sick of being bully n blamed!I really thankful for their love n care. After finishing my onversation with adeline this noon, i m more clear with my life.It might b difficult for this 6month but it will not b long...the world is round,what goes around comes around!
got to work later again...hopefully get to open some bottles so i could maintain my future life!
fill with revengeful feelings
u know wht, life sucks! i was told y'day to work at Glow, some chiplak malay hangouts!i dun like it coz i din open any bottles!! I cant believe i still able to c bad math calcultaion humans!! can u imagine 1bottle dewars RM300 2bottles Dewars RM667! how come more expensive than 1bottle price??? i really dunno how they calculate!stupid!
This is ot the issue. the issue is how come i got kick to another outlet again? i was shocked when grace sent me msg telling me that i have to work at Glow KL. i msg her thn she replied that the BED manager complaint bout me. i was so surprised n immediately call her to clarify. i wan to know why! not that i m naive but i always always maintained my job servicing how could someone complaint bout my service? i dun get it!whn i asked grace bad service in wht term? grace cant answer to my qiestion also! i told her i wan her to find out n i m not afraid to talk bout this.
after i hung up that call, i think again...trying to figure out the connection. I believe Mike(operation director) wont simply compain ppl n usually he will tell properly, so how come he could complain bout me suddenlt.moreover the last time i met him,before i finish my work he didnt say anything n even talk in friendly way with me. suddenly i recall a person that will do such things,Arris! she's the ex manager there n she's very close to Apple(my best fren), Arris oso very close with Mike coz they were secondary skolmate! I only can think of Arris n Apple. Why?
Ever since the blog issue, Apple din wanna talk to me o bother bout me. when i got caught for standing outside the counter she din even help me to clarify that there was not many customer inside the club!nvm... but i think grace mention to her bout the blog n say that i told her that apple snatch new promoters' receipt, then she wanna revenge on me. inluding i'm doin more sales than her! without collecting FREE receipt i ady sell more than her... actually she cant sell, she's like a vase..but last time she was lucky coz Arris always help me keep receipt n alwiz let her open the bottles!since i was there, her chances was reduced to 15%!
Honestly, i can figure the connection. Apple purposely manja in front of arris saying her sales bad n i bully her then she will say smthg until Arris will help her. the only way to make apple sruvive in the club n do more sales is to send me off! so that is y they called grace n tell them put me other place!
i have so much to think of n arrange...now i have to face probs for a PART TIME job!!!!!!!i really cant stand it anymore! i really wanna kena apple soon! but now its important for me to make a good decision whether to quit my job o not. I need to calculate my allowances...so i could survive till next Feb.... i will not forgive apple! i know its her work!
This is ot the issue. the issue is how come i got kick to another outlet again? i was shocked when grace sent me msg telling me that i have to work at Glow KL. i msg her thn she replied that the BED manager complaint bout me. i was so surprised n immediately call her to clarify. i wan to know why! not that i m naive but i always always maintained my job servicing how could someone complaint bout my service? i dun get it!whn i asked grace bad service in wht term? grace cant answer to my qiestion also! i told her i wan her to find out n i m not afraid to talk bout this.
after i hung up that call, i think again...trying to figure out the connection. I believe Mike(operation director) wont simply compain ppl n usually he will tell properly, so how come he could complain bout me suddenlt.moreover the last time i met him,before i finish my work he didnt say anything n even talk in friendly way with me. suddenly i recall a person that will do such things,Arris! she's the ex manager there n she's very close to Apple(my best fren), Arris oso very close with Mike coz they were secondary skolmate! I only can think of Arris n Apple. Why?
Ever since the blog issue, Apple din wanna talk to me o bother bout me. when i got caught for standing outside the counter she din even help me to clarify that there was not many customer inside the club!nvm... but i think grace mention to her bout the blog n say that i told her that apple snatch new promoters' receipt, then she wanna revenge on me. inluding i'm doin more sales than her! without collecting FREE receipt i ady sell more than her... actually she cant sell, she's like a vase..but last time she was lucky coz Arris always help me keep receipt n alwiz let her open the bottles!since i was there, her chances was reduced to 15%!
Honestly, i can figure the connection. Apple purposely manja in front of arris saying her sales bad n i bully her then she will say smthg until Arris will help her. the only way to make apple sruvive in the club n do more sales is to send me off! so that is y they called grace n tell them put me other place!
i have so much to think of n arrange...now i have to face probs for a PART TIME job!!!!!!!i really cant stand it anymore! i really wanna kena apple soon! but now its important for me to make a good decision whether to quit my job o not. I need to calculate my allowances...so i could survive till next Feb.... i will not forgive apple! i know its her work!
Monday, August 6, 2007
Learn how to live with the unfair creatures!!
Life has nvr been better, in fact, getting worse...giving me a great instcint that the same incident will happen again!i was sent to small pub n bistro and lucky i manage to get sale there. I know that Ah ting(arsehole jerk) wants to fire me but he's not stupid either, he knows how to play wif the rule! since he cant fire mejust like that, he issued warning coz i stood outside the entrance after 1.30 am!Apple was damn fucking lucky that she din kena that day coz she bz clubbing in there! and now she hates me reason was simple, coz i had more sales than her last 2weeks. she sold 6bottles n i sold 16bottles. she got so pissed off! so from that day onwards she din wanna talk to me, even i got into trouble, she din even comfort me o help me explain that nite's situations! i know she's another person who speaks with mask! dun try me... i ady have a list of ppl that i really kick their arse soon! wait for the day!
dad went outstation today, so i decided to go home n accompany my mom. reached home bout 2pm n rest for while since mom was bz with her yam cake.then v went off to the tailor shop thn went home n sleep. then in the night we went for dinner with julie in kepong. it was a simple dinner coz onkly 3of us but i think i am glad to b with mom.
by now i should be xtremely bz with my event coming on 29 aug. jude n the gang will b in langkawi for the next 5days! fuck it!why? its a sem break, i ave to handle all the things alone coz everyone is not around! from stage, to gound, sponsors, to vip n refreshments!!! if this event fails, i'm dead. I do not have any replies from any sponsors yet!!! see how in trouble i am now... gosh! cross my finger n pray hard!!!
dad went outstation today, so i decided to go home n accompany my mom. reached home bout 2pm n rest for while since mom was bz with her yam cake.then v went off to the tailor shop thn went home n sleep. then in the night we went for dinner with julie in kepong. it was a simple dinner coz onkly 3of us but i think i am glad to b with mom.
by now i should be xtremely bz with my event coming on 29 aug. jude n the gang will b in langkawi for the next 5days! fuck it!why? its a sem break, i ave to handle all the things alone coz everyone is not around! from stage, to gound, sponsors, to vip n refreshments!!! if this event fails, i'm dead. I do not have any replies from any sponsors yet!!! see how in trouble i am now... gosh! cross my finger n pray hard!!!
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