It was an unforgettable day... I know i'm not a loser but yet i lost to someone that I knew it would happen. I'm really down. I dunno why, mayb wht Hw said is true,I cant lose, in anything...I paused n think why is it so.I used to b a very polite and humble. I rather to be hurt thn hurt people. And now i realise that i rather to hurt people than being hurt. I changed...but when? How come I'm so selfish now. Whatever I did, I put myself at 1st place, even things were wrong, i'll try to show it was not my fault. Sometimes i even imagined that I might change to another person, a cruel and then cold-blooded.
Although I dont really hate this gurl, but then I still feel sad. SHe's my junior, but my major point of level. It's my weakness, I kept wondering of how to improve? Or how I could change to b a good presenter. Yday it was my sales pitch presentation in Managerial Communication class, I suffered 1week researching stuffs n then compiled it then presented it just like a usual presentation. I admit that it was not interesting at all. I did not maintain the eye contact and tone. Although my "clients" said tht I had done marvellous research but thn I know i wont win the contract bcoz i failed to convince them. But is there's 5 points to consider i won 3 n group A won 2(trust me!) but still the got the contract, bcoz the 2 points the won is the highest mark compared the 3points I got. Thts y i lose terribly... I was guilty, coz i represented the team. I know 1 of my member was quite sad, i felt bad. BUt it was not everyone's fault... All i know, i'm sad... sad coz i'm bad presenter.
I really wanna win in everything, even this presenting part, I cant lose anything n this is my final year as well. 3/10 is my total marks i could get for this asssigment. I really cant imagine wht is my total carry mark later... i'm worried. anyway, i cant do anything by now... i just hope that I will forget bout this n stand again, FIGHT again, n let HER down terribly oso!
Thursday, December 20, 2007
Thursday, November 22, 2007
Heading wrong Way with Right Intention
Humans are born with needs, and not ever ppl in this world fulfilled with their needs. when needs r fulfilled, u must want smthg to make a better living. The moment i woke up this mrg, i realise that it's within GOD's empowerment whether to let u walk further o maintain as u r. My 2nd thoughts is, hw much u eat n how wealthy u could b r nearly arranged by GOD. BBut if u wanna go further, thn v'll need to c how far it is... just as long u r nt breaking the commandments.
Live could b wonderful, if u could imagine the 7rainbow colors in ur mind. however, as u live longer, I realise that 7colors is just the basic natural colors. I need to step forward to bring more color choices in order to make my palette more meaningful.I used to say that I'm not materialistic but i'm definitely a great loyalable lover.As I had learnt frm my experiences, i make no "possibility" conclusion that IF this or ELSE that. N yes, I believe that material is such a big issue to me. Whether howard gonna leave me, I will b sad but yet I will survive to bring myself a better ending. Thomas introduced a fren named keith to me through our MSN. I got to know him as fren n then he proposed me to b his PT gf... He's 27 n he's damn rich with his own plane, driver, own company (travelshoppe & plantex). I heard this frm Thomas b4. Anyway, Keith got a gf which is 5years older than him. If i choose to have him as my PT bf, I'm materialistic! On the other hand, I was thinking, mayb one day, the same scenario will hit me as well.what goes arund comes around... BUt Howard cant fulfil wht i wan. me n keith even discuss that if v both r together its not for sex purposes but to meditate both pshycological needs n care.I think his gf neglected him coz both were bz to maintain n expopse their biz in overseas.
N Keith knw he wants a companion, a person that can chat n make him happy. not a person that can play around on the bed. I agreed the same point with him. mayb he's elder thn me n more stable thts y i choose him. but it wont last long. I will still think howard is the best Guy i've ever had, its just this moment he cant provide financial stability. Well, i'll c how thing goes... i'm more worried of my career rather than relationship. its true
Live could b wonderful, if u could imagine the 7rainbow colors in ur mind. however, as u live longer, I realise that 7colors is just the basic natural colors. I need to step forward to bring more color choices in order to make my palette more meaningful.I used to say that I'm not materialistic but i'm definitely a great loyalable lover.As I had learnt frm my experiences, i make no "possibility" conclusion that IF this or ELSE that. N yes, I believe that material is such a big issue to me. Whether howard gonna leave me, I will b sad but yet I will survive to bring myself a better ending. Thomas introduced a fren named keith to me through our MSN. I got to know him as fren n then he proposed me to b his PT gf... He's 27 n he's damn rich with his own plane, driver, own company (travelshoppe & plantex). I heard this frm Thomas b4. Anyway, Keith got a gf which is 5years older than him. If i choose to have him as my PT bf, I'm materialistic! On the other hand, I was thinking, mayb one day, the same scenario will hit me as well.what goes arund comes around... BUt Howard cant fulfil wht i wan. me n keith even discuss that if v both r together its not for sex purposes but to meditate both pshycological needs n care.I think his gf neglected him coz both were bz to maintain n expopse their biz in overseas.
N Keith knw he wants a companion, a person that can chat n make him happy. not a person that can play around on the bed. I agreed the same point with him. mayb he's elder thn me n more stable thts y i choose him. but it wont last long. I will still think howard is the best Guy i've ever had, its just this moment he cant provide financial stability. Well, i'll c how thing goes... i'm more worried of my career rather than relationship. its true
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
De Results from My efforts....
Finally, the most awaiting moments r here....my results. I was quite worried with my results especially with how many A's. I expected 2B's n 3A's. 2B's is Research Communication and Internaitonal Marketing but surprisingly i got A for it. Only subject B is Resrach Comm. Well,expected coz my couursework was bad. Wht took my breath to hell was my Intro to Corp. Comm. lecturer when he lied to me saying that other than the so called "bitch" got A- everyone got B+. I mean OMG... she got A n i got B! harllow... I sat at the hall the longest hour with full of government philosophy by the end i only got a B??? I was so pissed off n frustrated!So, I did not went to collect my results on the actual day. Mayb i'm a bit coward oso... dunno why when semester is almost reaching the end, my heart feels heavier thn b4. Well, anyhow I must face the fact n give a good explanation to my dad on what's going on. Woke up early mrg at 8.30 n prepared myself to Uni. Met my classmate n v collected results 2gether. i was shocked when i saw A's on my results paper. N the 1st subject I looked at, of course, Intro to Corp Comm. OMG I got A! 1st reaction is to call my my lecturer to say thanks but no one picked up.Mayb he was too bz. Bt left him a msg to thank him...
Then i called my dad... at 1st I cheated him that my lecturer wanna c him coz I had bad results, n the 1st thing he said was I've been going out too frequent especially late nite... that caused my results like this. Then out of a burst I laughed at him.. for being conned by me. ha ha ha.... I told him its not true... I manage get the 30% off my tuition fees. Finally I get to save my dad's wallet. I'm pleased with it.. really. Thank GOD for guiding me to the right path n taking care of me...
My only concern now is to choose a right company for internship. I really wanna find a good job,pays well so i could take care of my parents n make them happy n live well.Of course pay my debts. But I really wanna try the entertainment field, but entertainment field will not last long. Shannon(my 1st love) gave me his compm contact but its Oil&Gas... abit boring field n stressful but stable n its a golden bowl coz i could join pretonas o even Shell later on... How?? wht should I do?? I dun mind how streessful I just wanna b successful according my plan n give my parents a better livings. Plus my sis is still studying... she needs $$ as well, i'm de eldest... there's alot i need to consider.I cant think n follow my heart as it wont benefit anyone but myself. I cant b that selfish coz my parents took a big sacrifices to raised me... I hope GOD will bless me with my decision...
Then i called my dad... at 1st I cheated him that my lecturer wanna c him coz I had bad results, n the 1st thing he said was I've been going out too frequent especially late nite... that caused my results like this. Then out of a burst I laughed at him.. for being conned by me. ha ha ha.... I told him its not true... I manage get the 30% off my tuition fees. Finally I get to save my dad's wallet. I'm pleased with it.. really. Thank GOD for guiding me to the right path n taking care of me...
My only concern now is to choose a right company for internship. I really wanna find a good job,pays well so i could take care of my parents n make them happy n live well.Of course pay my debts. But I really wanna try the entertainment field, but entertainment field will not last long. Shannon(my 1st love) gave me his compm contact but its Oil&Gas... abit boring field n stressful but stable n its a golden bowl coz i could join pretonas o even Shell later on... How?? wht should I do?? I dun mind how streessful I just wanna b successful according my plan n give my parents a better livings. Plus my sis is still studying... she needs $$ as well, i'm de eldest... there's alot i need to consider.I cant think n follow my heart as it wont benefit anyone but myself. I cant b that selfish coz my parents took a big sacrifices to raised me... I hope GOD will bless me with my decision...
Monday, November 12, 2007
holiday plan - no plan
holiday started a week but nothing much happened to me. stay at Hw house online n sleep n eat. but some ppl ere make eyes so pissed off but i started to realise tht i actually dun wanna bother her coz i know i will make better future n by that time she will b eye soar. but there's something i find its really a stupid idea to bring out. Hw eldest sister, Nikkie wanted to use the Vios but she dunno wht stupid reason to bring, so by the end, she told her mom that she realises her KELISA (1.0) quite heavy petrol, so she wanna exhange Vios to find out whether its also so heavy petrol usage. Vios is 1.6 n kelisa is only 1.0! how to compare?? whts the comparison rate? Its just the matter she wanted to use it, its so obvious. Then i'm so pissed off with her mom as well. she put a dustbin(for al sorts rubbish) outside the open balcony. n his house is at higher hill, so when the wind blows the rubbish n dust flew into the living hall again!!! so whts the point sweeping the floor. n i cant say anything bout the dustbin. her mom is so ego though she's not the main contributor to the family! The father just like a cat at home. Her mom just buy vege, cook play mahjong everyday, gamble n travelling.But she did not give Hw a cent for college expenses.his dad only give him RM250 a month for travelling, lunch, o whteva usage. how can he survive? but his mom spent thounsand on travelling only.BUt alwiz say no money. i seriously cant forgive such ppl. rather use money gamble thn conribite to family, she only pay fees whts the big deal? my mom work so hard outside come back still cook n clean the house. oh Hw mom's cooking its just like my level even she has been housewife for years... she nvr have heart to cook oso. dunno wht kind of woman is this. i really cant stand this aunty, my future will not have her, Hw oso know i cant love with her..
Friday, November 2, 2007
It's around the corner....
ok, this is my 2nd time typing this bog, i was so stupid to click a link tht goes through my blog page, n everything just went off with a 'click'!!! stupid me!
ANyway, exam is over.what a challenge for me.. I dunno why i'm so worried this time.. the more i felt the ending of my course the more stressful i am. I wonder if i'm old ady so i kenot take all exciting events...
Well, i had 3weeks stress n now its finally over! when i'm stressed i will play with lil boy at home~!! i think pets really make a lot diff in ppl's life. My home used to b very quiet n dull place,but ever since he came into our lives.. things r more meaningful. To me he filled the emptiness of my house. my parents will call him whenevr they reach home.. n will pamper when they open the cage n then hug him... so jealous~!!!! :( kiddin!
well, met my cousin's ex bf in white coffee house. chat for while... n suddenly he said something that suddenly makes me aware of something. he mentioned, it's important for us to know whether v wanna find a bf o a husband. coz a bf doesnt mean he will b ur husband. thats y v cant choose in a rush.take our time n decide properly. I think i'm abit aware by his sentences....
anyway, my major concern is still my future n career. I went lunch with my ex-bf...ermm he's actually my first love. updated ourselves n he told me that his corporate communication department needs manpower. he gave me contact n i think i will consider bout it though its oil&gas industry. I really hope to find a potential company n of course good income to fight for my future as well as build my living. anyway, i must alwiz remind myself slow n steady.... i guess i need to go home else my mom will make noise ady!
Boring holiday i guess....
ANyway, exam is over.what a challenge for me.. I dunno why i'm so worried this time.. the more i felt the ending of my course the more stressful i am. I wonder if i'm old ady so i kenot take all exciting events...
Well, i had 3weeks stress n now its finally over! when i'm stressed i will play with lil boy at home~!! i think pets really make a lot diff in ppl's life. My home used to b very quiet n dull place,but ever since he came into our lives.. things r more meaningful. To me he filled the emptiness of my house. my parents will call him whenevr they reach home.. n will pamper when they open the cage n then hug him... so jealous~!!!! :( kiddin!
well, met my cousin's ex bf in white coffee house. chat for while... n suddenly he said something that suddenly makes me aware of something. he mentioned, it's important for us to know whether v wanna find a bf o a husband. coz a bf doesnt mean he will b ur husband. thats y v cant choose in a rush.take our time n decide properly. I think i'm abit aware by his sentences....
anyway, my major concern is still my future n career. I went lunch with my ex-bf...ermm he's actually my first love. updated ourselves n he told me that his corporate communication department needs manpower. he gave me contact n i think i will consider bout it though its oil&gas industry. I really hope to find a potential company n of course good income to fight for my future as well as build my living. anyway, i must alwiz remind myself slow n steady.... i guess i need to go home else my mom will make noise ady!
Boring holiday i guess....
Monday, October 29, 2007
Exam....Desperado
well, i'm actually rush of time coz i need to send my car back by 3 so my dad could use it.I sent my puppy to clinic to vaccination this mrg, knowing i will have some extra time, i drop by to new open White coffee house nearby my house,it has Wi-Fi. Great, tomolo n Wed is my final paper... not really well prepared coz its more on General knowledge bout the government affairs and crisis communication in malaysia or abroad. So did s a lil research but found nothing impressive just ordinary cases. I thought of wrting issue on Mc.donalds crisis but i cant get the full report nor any small issue about it. I'm so disaaponted.
I think the guess thing in my blog is no one knows i Have this.So i could talk craps n shits bout ppl i hated the most o i admire o even love with no worries.Isn't great? anyway, on Sat i almost collapsed coz of sleepless nite, trying to do my best for my results. Ended up, i slept whole day after my exams. Kelvin was in KL Holiday Villa n i did drop by to find me.Well he's my cousin brother's fren. I guess he's going after me but too bad he's short but i did not reject him or accept him when he wanted me b his gf. I guess i dunno wht i want either. I c no future with anyone. Guess i'm in big trouble now...being too fussy! Ck called the whole nite to chat n i guess he's the right guy as in physically but emotionally, socially not impressed at all!
haih... what i wan now is more of trying to expose myself more to clim up the stairs slowly n hopefully i will be success by 30. Anwyay, dunno why but i'm doin this. I wanna clarify all stupid money that i owed
Credit Cards
RM10k i guess
RM1,800 cousin sister
my insurance , i wanna continue
cant recall now coz i'm in a rush
to be continue....
I think the guess thing in my blog is no one knows i Have this.So i could talk craps n shits bout ppl i hated the most o i admire o even love with no worries.Isn't great? anyway, on Sat i almost collapsed coz of sleepless nite, trying to do my best for my results. Ended up, i slept whole day after my exams. Kelvin was in KL Holiday Villa n i did drop by to find me.Well he's my cousin brother's fren. I guess he's going after me but too bad he's short but i did not reject him or accept him when he wanted me b his gf. I guess i dunno wht i want either. I c no future with anyone. Guess i'm in big trouble now...being too fussy! Ck called the whole nite to chat n i guess he's the right guy as in physically but emotionally, socially not impressed at all!
haih... what i wan now is more of trying to expose myself more to clim up the stairs slowly n hopefully i will be success by 30. Anwyay, dunno why but i'm doin this. I wanna clarify all stupid money that i owed
Credit Cards
RM10k i guess
RM1,800 cousin sister
my insurance , i wanna continue
cant recall now coz i'm in a rush
to be continue....
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
Hello again!!
it's been quite some time i never visit here... I think after I resigned from my Part time job. I felt relieved, seriously! no stress n upset. Now my only concern is my studies and exam n excellent results. I dun think this time i could get 4Flat coz resrach communication coursework i only get 29/50! so that could be B ady!! then the rest leave it to GOD! i really dunno how....
ANyway bought a puppy! miniature pinscher..notty n hyperactive. although he's not good looking but he's cute and attractive in his way. he's really a toy dog n could make ppl happy. its quite costy to take care of him but I saw my dad really happy. He really got my dad's attention. my dad treat him like "precious"! i'm glad he's committed with it...when xiao hao was sick yday, he was very worry n the way he carried xiao hao...its so pure... dad look so like JESUS carrying newborn baby!!
i love my dad so much... of course my mom oso la.but my mom was not involve yday!
anyway, my sis coming back tomolo... gotto go home on fri.. cant go out n b cinderrella again!!
ANyway bought a puppy! miniature pinscher..notty n hyperactive. although he's not good looking but he's cute and attractive in his way. he's really a toy dog n could make ppl happy. its quite costy to take care of him but I saw my dad really happy. He really got my dad's attention. my dad treat him like "precious"! i'm glad he's committed with it...when xiao hao was sick yday, he was very worry n the way he carried xiao hao...its so pure... dad look so like JESUS carrying newborn baby!!
i love my dad so much... of course my mom oso la.but my mom was not involve yday!
anyway, my sis coming back tomolo... gotto go home on fri.. cant go out n b cinderrella again!!
Monday, September 3, 2007
A Whole nEw life
Finally, my nightmare has gone...all I need to do is to move on n forget the past. My last day was in DV8, Grace did not allow me to work at any nice clubs so that i could get more sales before I leave. Well, thats the reality gurl!Face the fact! This time, this lesson makes me grew smarter..really. I think whtever i've gone thru since i was a gurl helps me to learn how to survive n stay stronger instead of learning how to avoid o finding the best way to suicide.I think I have to thanks all those Evil contributors, without them I wont b able to live til now. Every single time, minutes,tragedy gives an impact to my life. Including this time, I learnt to forgive n forget:: take n leave it. Its tiring to hate someone...So, i learnt how to "like" these ppl.
I realise i have 1 weakness, I seldom learn how to LISTEN patiencely. Its diff to learn how to listen. Listening doesnt mean U reply wht questions was asked but to understand wht the question was. haih.... I believe i'm really starting my new life n learning how to behave myself.
huh...now so pening, dunno y.
I realise i have 1 weakness, I seldom learn how to LISTEN patiencely. Its diff to learn how to listen. Listening doesnt mean U reply wht questions was asked but to understand wht the question was. haih.... I believe i'm really starting my new life n learning how to behave myself.
huh...now so pening, dunno y.
Friday, August 24, 2007
~Realised~
I was suppose to b on my bed, having presentation later at 10.mind is in a mess. Did not pass up my 1st Int Marketing asgmt, tht was months but I did pass up de rest. I totally got "trap" in myself. I cant let go the fact i've been btrayed by my own fren,BITCH.She even sent me a smile wishing me Hapi bday.She did not post on comment coz she dun wan ppl know she sent me smthg. Worst, Pink n wan xin oso nvr send me a bday msg o whteva! a simple msg will b sweer enuf but it turns bad. Honestly, the overall i'm not happy.seems like something still pinching me, heart feel sour, brain feels numb. how I wish i could end my PT job now. For de sake of RM100 extra i delay my service. Received msg frm Grace jst now, asking me to work at c u 2 9 PUB! n oso DV8, a place nobody want to b coz all malay ppl! She knows i dun wana wrk PUB n now she wanna torche me!according to schedule i was suppose to hv class bt lecturer shifted it to Wed tht's y Fri no class but I tild Grace I have class on Fri, coz I know things like this Shit will happen!Working in Pubs!
After receiving Grace's msg, my mind totally got infected with negatives thinkings. Not I wanna kill some1, just felt speechless! Oh, i realise i did not do well for my comm n negotiation! I fucked up all my asgmt this time.I dunno y, resign frm my job is a good decision o else i think i'll get 0 Flat for my GPA! i really hate grace coz she's stupid n heartless.She knows tht i got betrayed yet she acted stupid n let me have the blame,a leader like her, can go to hell! Kenix...this bitch goona get from me soon, unless she resign fast.I'll c how wealthy she is since she said if she got marry to a guy, the tarot says she will b a wealthy woman!V'll See!
Ppl write blog to share something happy but i always in revenging mood. ow could I get this off..I know i'm kinna sensitive at times, n bad tempered but i tried to control.... but shit stil happen to me. I'm good o bad i still will get the blame... Why?
After receiving Grace's msg, my mind totally got infected with negatives thinkings. Not I wanna kill some1, just felt speechless! Oh, i realise i did not do well for my comm n negotiation! I fucked up all my asgmt this time.I dunno y, resign frm my job is a good decision o else i think i'll get 0 Flat for my GPA! i really hate grace coz she's stupid n heartless.She knows tht i got betrayed yet she acted stupid n let me have the blame,a leader like her, can go to hell! Kenix...this bitch goona get from me soon, unless she resign fast.I'll c how wealthy she is since she said if she got marry to a guy, the tarot says she will b a wealthy woman!V'll See!
Ppl write blog to share something happy but i always in revenging mood. ow could I get this off..I know i'm kinna sensitive at times, n bad tempered but i tried to control.... but shit stil happen to me. I'm good o bad i still will get the blame... Why?
Sunday, August 19, 2007
Went to watch Rush Hour 3 on my bday, it was funny. Recommended if a person is really down just like me. The whole week i was in trauma, thinking of my job n studies n financial n of course my future career! I just dun understand why a PT job like that could make me think so hard n feel so upset bout it?! Even on my bday i dun feel happy at all. i forced myself not to think anyting related to Bacardi o Dewars o whtever liqour. Hw n I went for japanese restaurant. I choose there coz all F&B i can get 50% off! so the total bill was only RM40. amazing wasn't it? i ate my fav salmon fish, soft crab shell, teppanyaki, steamed egg(delicious!). i know Hw was trying his best to make me happy n comfortable on my day. And i was trying my best too.
But 1thing undecided is to resign my PT job or continue IF they will put me at a better outlet. I know i wil get attracted if they offer to send me back to BED Club o any outlet that could make money.I got many advices that try convince me not to cont' wif this job.Nothing seems benefited me except $$. Even my mom was relief after hearing say I wanna resign this job! I think she's been worrying bout my safety since it require to work till Max. 3am! Then got to go home alone.But actually Hw fetch me to work n i stay in his house. My concern is always $$. I wanna find as much as i could to give better living for both my parent.especially my mom, her pair of hands is as rough as the tar road surface. I pray so hard that GOD could bless me to be success n repay their sacrifices... they've been my guardian angel, without my parents I wouldnt b here....I just hope GOD treats everyone fair n I hope GOD hear my prayer everytime I make my wishes.
I plan to tell grace that I wanna resign by 31 Aug.yet, undesided now... I dont know what will happen if i resign n...huh so much to think. What Albertus n Adeline said was true...try focus on what i really want n most important to me. Yeah its true... I think i do not have strong determination that is why i am stil undecided! After my job i accidently met my old skolmate!PRIMARY mates!! one of them called Pui san as well, immediately she took out her mobile n called my other skolmate just to ask them come over my outlet n look at me. what a bittch! she was laughing while calling my frens. stupid bitch! i got so emotion on this situation coz i din wan anyone to know yet its broken from the hidden.
Later nite i will go home to have dinner with my parents.It was my first time my dad ask me to have my bday dinner together, i guess he knows i broke up with klang boy. To him, mayb it was a waste coz he was the only guy that my dad really chat with however, i think it was a great memories coz i grew from his experiences. I think other than Hw, My parents n MONEY is most important to me...i dun wanna think of marriage or kids until my real destiny comes... but I hope GOD will see what i've gone through n will bless me with a good living n happiness in future... so tired now...sleep ar...nitez little bloggy!
But 1thing undecided is to resign my PT job or continue IF they will put me at a better outlet. I know i wil get attracted if they offer to send me back to BED Club o any outlet that could make money.I got many advices that try convince me not to cont' wif this job.Nothing seems benefited me except $$. Even my mom was relief after hearing say I wanna resign this job! I think she's been worrying bout my safety since it require to work till Max. 3am! Then got to go home alone.But actually Hw fetch me to work n i stay in his house. My concern is always $$. I wanna find as much as i could to give better living for both my parent.especially my mom, her pair of hands is as rough as the tar road surface. I pray so hard that GOD could bless me to be success n repay their sacrifices... they've been my guardian angel, without my parents I wouldnt b here....I just hope GOD treats everyone fair n I hope GOD hear my prayer everytime I make my wishes.
I plan to tell grace that I wanna resign by 31 Aug.yet, undesided now... I dont know what will happen if i resign n...huh so much to think. What Albertus n Adeline said was true...try focus on what i really want n most important to me. Yeah its true... I think i do not have strong determination that is why i am stil undecided! After my job i accidently met my old skolmate!PRIMARY mates!! one of them called Pui san as well, immediately she took out her mobile n called my other skolmate just to ask them come over my outlet n look at me. what a bittch! she was laughing while calling my frens. stupid bitch! i got so emotion on this situation coz i din wan anyone to know yet its broken from the hidden.
Later nite i will go home to have dinner with my parents.It was my first time my dad ask me to have my bday dinner together, i guess he knows i broke up with klang boy. To him, mayb it was a waste coz he was the only guy that my dad really chat with however, i think it was a great memories coz i grew from his experiences. I think other than Hw, My parents n MONEY is most important to me...i dun wanna think of marriage or kids until my real destiny comes... but I hope GOD will see what i've gone through n will bless me with a good living n happiness in future... so tired now...sleep ar...nitez little bloggy!
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
45 minutes
on 14Aug i received an sms...unexpected sms!!!MY DAD!!! he sms me to wish me happy bday!!OH MY GOD!!! it's 1st time ever...i was so touched n appreciate his wish.But wht happen today makes me unhappy again! i accidently deleted my dad sms coz i put in my bag i forgot to keylock!but then the wish has been crafted in my heart! I love my dad so much!Of course my mom also...both of them equally important to me...
well another 30minutes to strike 12am!!! 16August 2007!! i will b older by 1yr!i hope i could be young forever! i really hope 1 day i could b prettier n sexy and attractive... :P
tomolo i got to go college settle the event...thn meet up some big staffs for the weekend PT work...RM50 p/day only thn settle assignmentsz....it seems like bday is no more an big event to me...so common!
Hopefully can get bday gift...i din receive bday gift ady....
well another 30minutes to strike 12am!!! 16August 2007!! i will b older by 1yr!i hope i could be young forever! i really hope 1 day i could b prettier n sexy and attractive... :P
tomolo i got to go college settle the event...thn meet up some big staffs for the weekend PT work...RM50 p/day only thn settle assignmentsz....it seems like bday is no more an big event to me...so common!
Hopefully can get bday gift...i din receive bday gift ady....
Saturday, August 11, 2007
Experiences tells who r my true frens....
This month is not a good month for me...things happen like shit, ppl bitchin bout me whther nt of jealousy, haterous, revenge... n all this aura makes me grow taller. Maybe all those shit sound very evil, but think at another edge, hey without them i wont learn a lesson n wont b able to gain something from me. This shows the fact the the real world is cruel n only the "smart" will survive! i really learned this time after summarizing all my experiences...true frens is not only a term given based on short term relationship...but only given when someone really cares n love when u r down n in need...
2days having insomia...living in clueless world!can't think of a solution n i find myself so useles...on that time i thought of my frens....but who r my frens?where r they....no where!no one!They only appear when i have value to them.Mayb i have ppl bside me that i could say they r my frens but not best frens.now i have 2 person that i could say they r my best fren n also bro+sis!ADELINE n ALBERTUS!
both of them r like my bro+sis.they r the one that thought me how to socialize n learn to b in part of the society. they r very positive person. Adeline said she has been in my shoes' b4 that is y she always explain o teach me from her experiences. she nvr felt tired of guiding me along the way... n she make sure she will holds my hand n nvr fall apart. Even Albertus, he is a man with great knowledge of life.although his interpretation not as good as Adeline but his advice is straight forward.These 2days i learn from their advice. they gave me so much of guidance that makes me wake from my fairyland.Without them i think i'm still in my maze n mst probably i might leave this world...i'm sick of being bully n blamed!I really thankful for their love n care. After finishing my onversation with adeline this noon, i m more clear with my life.It might b difficult for this 6month but it will not b long...the world is round,what goes around comes around!
got to work later again...hopefully get to open some bottles so i could maintain my future life!
2days having insomia...living in clueless world!can't think of a solution n i find myself so useles...on that time i thought of my frens....but who r my frens?where r they....no where!no one!They only appear when i have value to them.Mayb i have ppl bside me that i could say they r my frens but not best frens.now i have 2 person that i could say they r my best fren n also bro+sis!ADELINE n ALBERTUS!
both of them r like my bro+sis.they r the one that thought me how to socialize n learn to b in part of the society. they r very positive person. Adeline said she has been in my shoes' b4 that is y she always explain o teach me from her experiences. she nvr felt tired of guiding me along the way... n she make sure she will holds my hand n nvr fall apart. Even Albertus, he is a man with great knowledge of life.although his interpretation not as good as Adeline but his advice is straight forward.These 2days i learn from their advice. they gave me so much of guidance that makes me wake from my fairyland.Without them i think i'm still in my maze n mst probably i might leave this world...i'm sick of being bully n blamed!I really thankful for their love n care. After finishing my onversation with adeline this noon, i m more clear with my life.It might b difficult for this 6month but it will not b long...the world is round,what goes around comes around!
got to work later again...hopefully get to open some bottles so i could maintain my future life!
fill with revengeful feelings
u know wht, life sucks! i was told y'day to work at Glow, some chiplak malay hangouts!i dun like it coz i din open any bottles!! I cant believe i still able to c bad math calcultaion humans!! can u imagine 1bottle dewars RM300 2bottles Dewars RM667! how come more expensive than 1bottle price??? i really dunno how they calculate!stupid!
This is ot the issue. the issue is how come i got kick to another outlet again? i was shocked when grace sent me msg telling me that i have to work at Glow KL. i msg her thn she replied that the BED manager complaint bout me. i was so surprised n immediately call her to clarify. i wan to know why! not that i m naive but i always always maintained my job servicing how could someone complaint bout my service? i dun get it!whn i asked grace bad service in wht term? grace cant answer to my qiestion also! i told her i wan her to find out n i m not afraid to talk bout this.
after i hung up that call, i think again...trying to figure out the connection. I believe Mike(operation director) wont simply compain ppl n usually he will tell properly, so how come he could complain bout me suddenlt.moreover the last time i met him,before i finish my work he didnt say anything n even talk in friendly way with me. suddenly i recall a person that will do such things,Arris! she's the ex manager there n she's very close to Apple(my best fren), Arris oso very close with Mike coz they were secondary skolmate! I only can think of Arris n Apple. Why?
Ever since the blog issue, Apple din wanna talk to me o bother bout me. when i got caught for standing outside the counter she din even help me to clarify that there was not many customer inside the club!nvm... but i think grace mention to her bout the blog n say that i told her that apple snatch new promoters' receipt, then she wanna revenge on me. inluding i'm doin more sales than her! without collecting FREE receipt i ady sell more than her... actually she cant sell, she's like a vase..but last time she was lucky coz Arris always help me keep receipt n alwiz let her open the bottles!since i was there, her chances was reduced to 15%!
Honestly, i can figure the connection. Apple purposely manja in front of arris saying her sales bad n i bully her then she will say smthg until Arris will help her. the only way to make apple sruvive in the club n do more sales is to send me off! so that is y they called grace n tell them put me other place!
i have so much to think of n arrange...now i have to face probs for a PART TIME job!!!!!!!i really cant stand it anymore! i really wanna kena apple soon! but now its important for me to make a good decision whether to quit my job o not. I need to calculate my allowances...so i could survive till next Feb.... i will not forgive apple! i know its her work!
This is ot the issue. the issue is how come i got kick to another outlet again? i was shocked when grace sent me msg telling me that i have to work at Glow KL. i msg her thn she replied that the BED manager complaint bout me. i was so surprised n immediately call her to clarify. i wan to know why! not that i m naive but i always always maintained my job servicing how could someone complaint bout my service? i dun get it!whn i asked grace bad service in wht term? grace cant answer to my qiestion also! i told her i wan her to find out n i m not afraid to talk bout this.
after i hung up that call, i think again...trying to figure out the connection. I believe Mike(operation director) wont simply compain ppl n usually he will tell properly, so how come he could complain bout me suddenlt.moreover the last time i met him,before i finish my work he didnt say anything n even talk in friendly way with me. suddenly i recall a person that will do such things,Arris! she's the ex manager there n she's very close to Apple(my best fren), Arris oso very close with Mike coz they were secondary skolmate! I only can think of Arris n Apple. Why?
Ever since the blog issue, Apple din wanna talk to me o bother bout me. when i got caught for standing outside the counter she din even help me to clarify that there was not many customer inside the club!nvm... but i think grace mention to her bout the blog n say that i told her that apple snatch new promoters' receipt, then she wanna revenge on me. inluding i'm doin more sales than her! without collecting FREE receipt i ady sell more than her... actually she cant sell, she's like a vase..but last time she was lucky coz Arris always help me keep receipt n alwiz let her open the bottles!since i was there, her chances was reduced to 15%!
Honestly, i can figure the connection. Apple purposely manja in front of arris saying her sales bad n i bully her then she will say smthg until Arris will help her. the only way to make apple sruvive in the club n do more sales is to send me off! so that is y they called grace n tell them put me other place!
i have so much to think of n arrange...now i have to face probs for a PART TIME job!!!!!!!i really cant stand it anymore! i really wanna kena apple soon! but now its important for me to make a good decision whether to quit my job o not. I need to calculate my allowances...so i could survive till next Feb.... i will not forgive apple! i know its her work!
Monday, August 6, 2007
Learn how to live with the unfair creatures!!
Life has nvr been better, in fact, getting worse...giving me a great instcint that the same incident will happen again!i was sent to small pub n bistro and lucky i manage to get sale there. I know that Ah ting(arsehole jerk) wants to fire me but he's not stupid either, he knows how to play wif the rule! since he cant fire mejust like that, he issued warning coz i stood outside the entrance after 1.30 am!Apple was damn fucking lucky that she din kena that day coz she bz clubbing in there! and now she hates me reason was simple, coz i had more sales than her last 2weeks. she sold 6bottles n i sold 16bottles. she got so pissed off! so from that day onwards she din wanna talk to me, even i got into trouble, she din even comfort me o help me explain that nite's situations! i know she's another person who speaks with mask! dun try me... i ady have a list of ppl that i really kick their arse soon! wait for the day!
dad went outstation today, so i decided to go home n accompany my mom. reached home bout 2pm n rest for while since mom was bz with her yam cake.then v went off to the tailor shop thn went home n sleep. then in the night we went for dinner with julie in kepong. it was a simple dinner coz onkly 3of us but i think i am glad to b with mom.
by now i should be xtremely bz with my event coming on 29 aug. jude n the gang will b in langkawi for the next 5days! fuck it!why? its a sem break, i ave to handle all the things alone coz everyone is not around! from stage, to gound, sponsors, to vip n refreshments!!! if this event fails, i'm dead. I do not have any replies from any sponsors yet!!! see how in trouble i am now... gosh! cross my finger n pray hard!!!
dad went outstation today, so i decided to go home n accompany my mom. reached home bout 2pm n rest for while since mom was bz with her yam cake.then v went off to the tailor shop thn went home n sleep. then in the night we went for dinner with julie in kepong. it was a simple dinner coz onkly 3of us but i think i am glad to b with mom.
by now i should be xtremely bz with my event coming on 29 aug. jude n the gang will b in langkawi for the next 5days! fuck it!why? its a sem break, i ave to handle all the things alone coz everyone is not around! from stage, to gound, sponsors, to vip n refreshments!!! if this event fails, i'm dead. I do not have any replies from any sponsors yet!!! see how in trouble i am now... gosh! cross my finger n pray hard!!!
Saturday, July 28, 2007
breakdown
I think at this time, its difficult for me to talk bout my feelings. I felt myself so useless n i feel like commit suicide... its so tiring being a human. Sometimes I m stubborn but this doesnt mean i m wrong. Different ppl do have weakness n their own personality. Last nite, I work at bed n it was good sales but then just now i was told to work at PJ Waikiki. I got shocked n unhappy. I know something goes wrong. I called Grace n she said that I din attend MOnday's meeting but i have told her earlier that I cant attend the meeting reason is simple, I hate Ah ting!He's the manager of all outlets. He's such an asshole! He thought he's so great! He take control everything and think he's powerful so he could control and scold everyone. His english is so bad yet he wanna speak his broken english! I dun mind if he wanna learn but he's not! he scolding ppl everytime...complaining only.
Like just now, Grace says that he complaint bout me that i was curi tulang while working. Harlow, he said that i was standing at the counter even ady 1.30am. Yeah supposingly V r told to go in after 1.30am but then last week there's nothing for me to do... i did all my services and whatever job i should do!Thats y i stood outside, i dunno for how long but i did stood outside. then that BASTARD took picture of me!During the meeting he showed the picture to Grace(team leader) Now grace thinks that i'm bad. N considering putting me on other places. WTF! The worst part, he sounded me for writing my blog coz i was mentioning bout my colleague! Then she said i shouldnt write that...its spoiling company's reputations! At that moment i really feel like wanna quit my job...really. i feel so tires with these ppl ady. BUt then i have no choice i need money to go for facial n eat somemore now i'm staying outside ady... But then if she keep putting here n there i might have quit oso... i m really tired... n fed up. God, pls make the world turn faster so i could graduate soon...
until this moment i still feel like crying coz Only me was blamed!!! Apple was standing there too but then she was not caught coz she got frens inside on that day, Sat she was standing outside most of the time...but she was not caught. I even helped her so many times, when she said she wana go home early (1.45am) I nvr tell anyone oso... I was just so so so UNLUCKY!
This few weeks i got drunk no one knows but all this small matter he make it as a rule and so strict! and start firing ppl. No matter how he wann us to b inside standing inside only! When stand inside customer see us thn will need to drink and dance not including being molested sometimes!!!!!! I know its ordinary but then when its for long term it would b wht?? i cant imagine! Y it had to b this stupid?
izit wrong to write my blog, izit wrong not to go in to stand? I dunno.. i only know this bastard wants ppl to see his power!I really wan die...
Like just now, Grace says that he complaint bout me that i was curi tulang while working. Harlow, he said that i was standing at the counter even ady 1.30am. Yeah supposingly V r told to go in after 1.30am but then last week there's nothing for me to do... i did all my services and whatever job i should do!Thats y i stood outside, i dunno for how long but i did stood outside. then that BASTARD took picture of me!During the meeting he showed the picture to Grace(team leader) Now grace thinks that i'm bad. N considering putting me on other places. WTF! The worst part, he sounded me for writing my blog coz i was mentioning bout my colleague! Then she said i shouldnt write that...its spoiling company's reputations! At that moment i really feel like wanna quit my job...really. i feel so tires with these ppl ady. BUt then i have no choice i need money to go for facial n eat somemore now i'm staying outside ady... But then if she keep putting here n there i might have quit oso... i m really tired... n fed up. God, pls make the world turn faster so i could graduate soon...
until this moment i still feel like crying coz Only me was blamed!!! Apple was standing there too but then she was not caught coz she got frens inside on that day, Sat she was standing outside most of the time...but she was not caught. I even helped her so many times, when she said she wana go home early (1.45am) I nvr tell anyone oso... I was just so so so UNLUCKY!
This few weeks i got drunk no one knows but all this small matter he make it as a rule and so strict! and start firing ppl. No matter how he wann us to b inside standing inside only! When stand inside customer see us thn will need to drink and dance not including being molested sometimes!!!!!! I know its ordinary but then when its for long term it would b wht?? i cant imagine! Y it had to b this stupid?
izit wrong to write my blog, izit wrong not to go in to stand? I dunno.. i only know this bastard wants ppl to see his power!I really wan die...
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
NuMB
Cant Sleep! Its like 5am! Not finish with my assignments, nt even looking at the proposal written by Jd, o doin any readings.Well, Cultural Nite 2007 is coming n the set date is on 29/8, well 1month ahead.Its not easy when my position is high. Some ppl tend to respect me as bcoz the empowerment i had, some jealous out of it n some dun bother what kinna fucking power i've got. Reason is simple, ppl respect coz they keen to learn n hopefully they could b at that position, ppl jealous coz they cant reach to that level but still wants a win-win situation, n dun bother? Haiya, coz got backup ma!Father rich mother fucking rich so why bother so much?!But seriously I m not trying to show off or what, for a gurl age 24 like me been through too much.
I think last Fri i argued with that Lembu Hitam(Security on female's hostel)It makes me thought for a moment how come i could lose my temper like that?It look so demoralized! Am I that fierce? Maybe..cant keep hold on it, dunno why, especially that wanna take advantage on me o fooling me! Well, I wanted to collect my old porposal so i could write this new 1, so i walked in n then another new guard stop me politely asking my ID, The moment i turn n wanted to tell her i forgot to bring n wanna explain to her that I just wanna b up there for less thn 5min, Then this Lembu Hitam SHOUTED at me (the whole floors could hear it!!!) NG PUI SAN KAMU TINGGAL LUAR KAN MANA ID!!! Immediately i lost my temper! I yelled back "I DIN BRING MY ID n I"M STILL STAYING HERE(showing my keys)!she shutted her mouth. It was like less thn 5min I went down ady, the moment i came out of the life, she aimed at me coz just when i passed through the vending machine she shouted again "LAIN KALI...." I ady LOST CONTROL " THE NEXT TIME U WANNA ASK FOR SMETHING LEARN HOW TO RESPECT!!!" she got shocked n shut for while then again she start mumbling something i shouted while walking out " U DUN SPEAK MALAY WITH ME I DUN UNDERSTAND!!!" n then she said "DIAMLAH!" i replied "SHUT UP LAH!" See, what kinna lady i am... i think if she never shouted my FULL NAME i wont be that "crazy" honestly she's not respecting my father's name! n harlow... students pays for her salary not the college!
If i wanted to make whole trouble to this college it would b easy. But i m still here so avoid whatever i could 1st! then this few days keep arguing with Hw, dunno y! mayb of diff opinion. He worries i leave him n i worry he will curi makan... mayb its from bad histories i had, cant brainwash it just like that. the more I wanna get rid of it, the more it reminds me about it! Stupid!
Well this semester will b tough for me, 5subjects n then this event n my work. Haiz Sat was a good sales for me, i sold 16Bottle n Ap sold 6 only, so i gave her 1... Not to say pity her but to return what she gave me when I first worked there, my sales was bad that time oso... But my salary this month is bad 325 only coz last month when to Nk's wedding, i think lost RM100 (minimum) But I know its more thn that coz I heard that nite total sales was 40 over bottles!!! Gosh! ok whatever, as long i have cash flowing in... Frankly speaking Hw financial not stABLE so sometimes i do suport him hopefully he wont btray me n forget my kindness n my love with a simple gudbye...hopefully!so thats how my salary gone...Really wanna go s'pore visit my sis So i could get to do some resrach n readings...but...NVM...! Time to sleep else Hw will make noise again!
I think last Fri i argued with that Lembu Hitam(Security on female's hostel)It makes me thought for a moment how come i could lose my temper like that?It look so demoralized! Am I that fierce? Maybe..cant keep hold on it, dunno why, especially that wanna take advantage on me o fooling me! Well, I wanted to collect my old porposal so i could write this new 1, so i walked in n then another new guard stop me politely asking my ID, The moment i turn n wanted to tell her i forgot to bring n wanna explain to her that I just wanna b up there for less thn 5min, Then this Lembu Hitam SHOUTED at me (the whole floors could hear it!!!) NG PUI SAN KAMU TINGGAL LUAR KAN MANA ID!!! Immediately i lost my temper! I yelled back "I DIN BRING MY ID n I"M STILL STAYING HERE(showing my keys)!she shutted her mouth. It was like less thn 5min I went down ady, the moment i came out of the life, she aimed at me coz just when i passed through the vending machine she shouted again "LAIN KALI...." I ady LOST CONTROL " THE NEXT TIME U WANNA ASK FOR SMETHING LEARN HOW TO RESPECT!!!" she got shocked n shut for while then again she start mumbling something i shouted while walking out " U DUN SPEAK MALAY WITH ME I DUN UNDERSTAND!!!" n then she said "DIAMLAH!" i replied "SHUT UP LAH!" See, what kinna lady i am... i think if she never shouted my FULL NAME i wont be that "crazy" honestly she's not respecting my father's name! n harlow... students pays for her salary not the college!
If i wanted to make whole trouble to this college it would b easy. But i m still here so avoid whatever i could 1st! then this few days keep arguing with Hw, dunno y! mayb of diff opinion. He worries i leave him n i worry he will curi makan... mayb its from bad histories i had, cant brainwash it just like that. the more I wanna get rid of it, the more it reminds me about it! Stupid!
Well this semester will b tough for me, 5subjects n then this event n my work. Haiz Sat was a good sales for me, i sold 16Bottle n Ap sold 6 only, so i gave her 1... Not to say pity her but to return what she gave me when I first worked there, my sales was bad that time oso... But my salary this month is bad 325 only coz last month when to Nk's wedding, i think lost RM100 (minimum) But I know its more thn that coz I heard that nite total sales was 40 over bottles!!! Gosh! ok whatever, as long i have cash flowing in... Frankly speaking Hw financial not stABLE so sometimes i do suport him hopefully he wont btray me n forget my kindness n my love with a simple gudbye...hopefully!so thats how my salary gone...Really wanna go s'pore visit my sis So i could get to do some resrach n readings...but...NVM...! Time to sleep else Hw will make noise again!
Monday, July 9, 2007
It's BeeN a Week
Wow..I din realise that it's been a week i have nt say 'hi' to my lovely blog! Miss u So muCH!Wht Have i done this whole week? Hmmm~ Attend classes n sitting at Hw house only.I think my perception is right, staying in hostel is always better thn outside. like Thurs, i suppose to attend research Communication from 4-6. I rush all de way from Hw hse to College, but de moment i attended de class, lecturer says tht class will end now! Harlow...its only 4.15PM!The reason was simple, just bcoz some of the classmate din manage to find the Online Journals n statistics tht is why the class was cancelled! Though i was happy coz no class but waste my petrol leh!
Thurs Nite was a great nite coz i went dinner with Hw parents n of course tht NK+Husband was there. It was her bday n she make use of the extra table(on her wedding) for dinner.Attendees : Hw parents, Bi, Nk+Husband, Hw, Hw Aunty n daugther. Y i'm still happy though i'm having dinner with tht dinosour? i know that Hw mom still have the perception tht i'm 4yrs elder thn HW. But i pretended nothing. It was such a casual nite, i sat bside Bi, n Aunty is just Bi's side. During the dinner, nothing happened but after that dinner, aunty start chatting bout her holidays in Taiwan n etc... Coz she goin Vietnam on This Monday! (Yeah!Yeah!) There was some part aunty was so happy till she start touching my hands... n v laugh all de way, V disccussed bout Foods n then Uncle Bocor Rahsia, told Hw Uncle tht i bring them for dinner last Sunday! N Nk's face turns black n start qustioning Aunty when was it, where, n how come she dunno bout it. Why is she so fucking jealous n worried? She so scared tht her position will lost till she call home everyday for NOTHING! even for some small little decisions, she called home PRETENDING to ask for opinion. Its so obvious tht she was jealous tht nite coz i chatted with Anty so well, n the dinner secret reveals! N the most surprising part, after dinner while walking to car park, i was walking slowly with Uncle coz he was a lil drunk AGAIN! everyone was at the car park chatting, n suddenly Hw's Uncle says (From Far): Take care of uncle ar...
i din hear clearly on wht he said coz quite blur at tht time but manage to get the last line sentence. Thn Aunty suddenly gave a shock reaction, i overheard lil bit tht she's telling bout wht i've done on Nk's wedding. I took care of uncle n held hot towel onto his forehead n also wipe his body so he wont feel hot n uneasy.I'm doing this coz he dont know how to take care of himself n he got very high blood pressure just like my dad plus he got diabetis etc... i'm just worried of blood pressure.Making him relax will bring down the pressure. I think i manage to convince n touched Aunty's heart ba...after saying all this i'm ady at the car park where everyone was standing, i overheard Nk said that "Anyhow i just dont like her for..." i cant hear after that. Why i'm so sure tht she's saying me? Harlow, I know Hokkien, its just that they dunno i understand Hokkien!
I got so pissed of, but felt proud coz i ot compliments from Aunty, that means i'm not that bad nia...so, i ady dun bother what the heck Nk wanna do to me, o think of me, i know that she's trying to pull bak her mom's heart. Even yday... purposely come back thn say bring her mom go here n there... acting lar!
Well, Sunday is my most happiest moment. I slept till 3pm. Unexpectedly, Hw went out n came back from somewhere ady. While i was still lazy having my sweet dream, he went out to grocery shop to buy sausages n baked beans to cook for me. when he woke me up, n he pulled me to the kitchen, i saw baked beans, fried eggs, n sausages on the table. Inside the steamer there's still sweet corn. Honestly, he dunno how to cook coz the food was quite bad BUT, when i think of those happiness n all he had done for me, the food was so sweet... or i would rather say, any food goes into my mouth was delicious~ It was so touching, he could do my laundry without saying a word, he nvr argued with me if any guys called, he nvr argue any relationship btwn me n my frens, he cleans the room without scolding me, hejoke n laugh with me all the time, though sometimes he's good at twisting some facts but everyone is not perfect rite. My only concern is MYSELF~ i dunno if he's gonna b the rite guy or mayb if i will leave him for nt having stable financial, i dunno if i will love him till the end... I'm so worried but if u ask me now, i love him now coz he really good to me even i'm not perfect. Gosh~ i really hope tht he's the one i could stay for long n forever.... blessed~!
Thurs Nite was a great nite coz i went dinner with Hw parents n of course tht NK+Husband was there. It was her bday n she make use of the extra table(on her wedding) for dinner.Attendees : Hw parents, Bi, Nk+Husband, Hw, Hw Aunty n daugther. Y i'm still happy though i'm having dinner with tht dinosour? i know that Hw mom still have the perception tht i'm 4yrs elder thn HW. But i pretended nothing. It was such a casual nite, i sat bside Bi, n Aunty is just Bi's side. During the dinner, nothing happened but after that dinner, aunty start chatting bout her holidays in Taiwan n etc... Coz she goin Vietnam on This Monday! (Yeah!Yeah!) There was some part aunty was so happy till she start touching my hands... n v laugh all de way, V disccussed bout Foods n then Uncle Bocor Rahsia, told Hw Uncle tht i bring them for dinner last Sunday! N Nk's face turns black n start qustioning Aunty when was it, where, n how come she dunno bout it. Why is she so fucking jealous n worried? She so scared tht her position will lost till she call home everyday for NOTHING! even for some small little decisions, she called home PRETENDING to ask for opinion. Its so obvious tht she was jealous tht nite coz i chatted with Anty so well, n the dinner secret reveals! N the most surprising part, after dinner while walking to car park, i was walking slowly with Uncle coz he was a lil drunk AGAIN! everyone was at the car park chatting, n suddenly Hw's Uncle says (From Far): Take care of uncle ar...
i din hear clearly on wht he said coz quite blur at tht time but manage to get the last line sentence. Thn Aunty suddenly gave a shock reaction, i overheard lil bit tht she's telling bout wht i've done on Nk's wedding. I took care of uncle n held hot towel onto his forehead n also wipe his body so he wont feel hot n uneasy.I'm doing this coz he dont know how to take care of himself n he got very high blood pressure just like my dad plus he got diabetis etc... i'm just worried of blood pressure.Making him relax will bring down the pressure. I think i manage to convince n touched Aunty's heart ba...after saying all this i'm ady at the car park where everyone was standing, i overheard Nk said that "Anyhow i just dont like her for..." i cant hear after that. Why i'm so sure tht she's saying me? Harlow, I know Hokkien, its just that they dunno i understand Hokkien!
I got so pissed of, but felt proud coz i ot compliments from Aunty, that means i'm not that bad nia...so, i ady dun bother what the heck Nk wanna do to me, o think of me, i know that she's trying to pull bak her mom's heart. Even yday... purposely come back thn say bring her mom go here n there... acting lar!
Well, Sunday is my most happiest moment. I slept till 3pm. Unexpectedly, Hw went out n came back from somewhere ady. While i was still lazy having my sweet dream, he went out to grocery shop to buy sausages n baked beans to cook for me. when he woke me up, n he pulled me to the kitchen, i saw baked beans, fried eggs, n sausages on the table. Inside the steamer there's still sweet corn. Honestly, he dunno how to cook coz the food was quite bad BUT, when i think of those happiness n all he had done for me, the food was so sweet... or i would rather say, any food goes into my mouth was delicious~ It was so touching, he could do my laundry without saying a word, he nvr argued with me if any guys called, he nvr argue any relationship btwn me n my frens, he cleans the room without scolding me, hejoke n laugh with me all the time, though sometimes he's good at twisting some facts but everyone is not perfect rite. My only concern is MYSELF~ i dunno if he's gonna b the rite guy or mayb if i will leave him for nt having stable financial, i dunno if i will love him till the end... I'm so worried but if u ask me now, i love him now coz he really good to me even i'm not perfect. Gosh~ i really hope tht he's the one i could stay for long n forever.... blessed~!
Monday, July 2, 2007
SunDay StoriEs
I was a lazy week tht i did not attend class for the 1st week..well, as usual lecturers dun teach on 1st week. so i'm lazy oso. Whole week stay at Hw hse do reading n relax. I thought wanna go home but thinking the curfew n nthing to do, i decide not to go home...at least Hw will pamper me when i'm with him. :P
Sat was a good biz for me, i sold 15bottles of whiskey (RM150)! It was lucky! Anyway i still haven receive my last month pay! Damn it! This fucking company, Tok cock n fuck ppl very loud but then not efficient oso. Thn there's a guy named Alex keep bothering saying he wants BigMac. I really dun get izit i really need to buy these idiots hearts to get receipts?! I really cant my day out of graduation n b consumer! some of the ppl there, i know, din wanna give me the receipts! I know, nvm! Wait til the day come... BUt luckily there's 2PR help me alot. Js n My. They helped me to push sales n then those receipt they gave it to me...they really mean 2help me...without asking for return!I will never forget them.
Sunday, i din even sleep more thn 5hours. woke up at 7 thn went dim sum wt Hw. Thn go home for while n went out again to buy TRANSFORMERS!!! when reached 1U, within 10minutes we left the mall! (NO TICKETS!!!). When the most hated place u dun wanna go, there's a will for u to fulfil V watched at LEisure Mall.. quite pariah but better thn MV abit. Spacious but on flat ground! Interesting movie n amazing that nowadays techonlogy is so damn high tech, it look so real thn the one i watch when i was 6yrs old! I almost clap my hand when i saw all robotics gather together to kill megatone n to save the cube But i didnt... in the nite i brought Hw parents for dinner to replace father n mother's day, thn after that Hw n I watch alone! 2movies in a day! no as good as wht i thought, jst an ordinary WUuUuUuuUUu~ Movie! thn went back n rest. Tiring day n i spent RM150 ady! I need to save again...wht to do, stay at ppl's place nvr give monthly $$ must bring them out once in a while ler...haih...
Sat was a good biz for me, i sold 15bottles of whiskey (RM150)! It was lucky! Anyway i still haven receive my last month pay! Damn it! This fucking company, Tok cock n fuck ppl very loud but then not efficient oso. Thn there's a guy named Alex keep bothering saying he wants BigMac. I really dun get izit i really need to buy these idiots hearts to get receipts?! I really cant my day out of graduation n b consumer! some of the ppl there, i know, din wanna give me the receipts! I know, nvm! Wait til the day come... BUt luckily there's 2PR help me alot. Js n My. They helped me to push sales n then those receipt they gave it to me...they really mean 2help me...without asking for return!I will never forget them.
Sunday, i din even sleep more thn 5hours. woke up at 7 thn went dim sum wt Hw. Thn go home for while n went out again to buy TRANSFORMERS!!! when reached 1U, within 10minutes we left the mall! (NO TICKETS!!!). When the most hated place u dun wanna go, there's a will for u to fulfil
Friday, June 29, 2007
frustrated~!
actually i'm totally lazy to type but i dunno who to turn about al my frustrations! I only turn to my trustable Blog!when i write it wont bounce back, when i throw my tantrum it wont sound me back. but just listen to my problems quietly...
I dunno if i m choosing the right decision of staying with Hw. I choose to stay is bcoz i could see him more often rather thn staying in hostel facing the four walls n lifeless environment. Wireless not available all the time. I will die. So i decide so stay at his house, can save more $$ plus he's a student now. BUt one fact i cant run away, parental control. I stay here fr free, mst of the time eating his mom cooking, n using all the facilites. I know not paying is something unacceptable. But i thnk they should understand tht i'm a student n i work PT for livings. BUT this doesnt mean that i should keep my mouth shut n blind fold my eyes for any dissatisfactory!
I really cant stand the way Nk acted! I wrote headline tht obviously reflects her behaviour.I never c such gurl could put on her thick face so damn long! After her marriage, i thought i'm free on looking at her n her fake laughther.Who know's she so stupid, dunno how to cook yet so fussy! She cant cook but yet critics her in law for keeping left over food for next day! she cant eat left over food n cant eat without soup but she cant cook! GOD!!! ended up, go home everyday to eat Mummy's cooking! I wonder how long she could keep with this living after Hw shift to Puchong. I honestly dont appreciate gurls like tht. Even my sister is better than her!! At least my sis dunno really know how to cook but she wont make noise if eating left over food!Cant believe Fat bitch like her trying act rich but she's not at all! PLS la!!! i over heard that her neighbour commented her fr going home so frequent, thn she feedback tht"i Like ar!" Tak Tau Malu!
Y i think its embarassing? first, in law will think that she's not well thought by parents of this simple manner that she's married. whether she's used to it o like it o not she should b patience n behave! N should not complain or pretend very pity! N then start going home all the time.N Hw mom oso another 1, agree on her actions! I think my mom nvr pamper us like tht coz she wants us t b disciplines! I only remember my mom says, padan muka, ask u learn tht time dunwan, now dunno only know how to make noise!1 reality thing that is my parent nvr think their children is right 1st but always investigate or advice us instead of agreeing o supporting our negative behaviour. If i complain on smthg, my parents will say "izit u done smthg tht causes this issue happen" I really know why my parent dicipline me like tht...there's a reason n now i really appreciate wht they have thought me...
Now i feel better after bitching all Nk bad stuffs! GUd NIte... it's 3am ady...
I dunno if i m choosing the right decision of staying with Hw. I choose to stay is bcoz i could see him more often rather thn staying in hostel facing the four walls n lifeless environment. Wireless not available all the time. I will die. So i decide so stay at his house, can save more $$ plus he's a student now. BUt one fact i cant run away, parental control. I stay here fr free, mst of the time eating his mom cooking, n using all the facilites. I know not paying is something unacceptable. But i thnk they should understand tht i'm a student n i work PT for livings. BUT this doesnt mean that i should keep my mouth shut n blind fold my eyes for any dissatisfactory!
I really cant stand the way Nk acted! I wrote headline tht obviously reflects her behaviour.I never c such gurl could put on her thick face so damn long! After her marriage, i thought i'm free on looking at her n her fake laughther.Who know's she so stupid, dunno how to cook yet so fussy! She cant cook but yet critics her in law for keeping left over food for next day! she cant eat left over food n cant eat without soup but she cant cook! GOD!!! ended up, go home everyday to eat Mummy's cooking! I wonder how long she could keep with this living after Hw shift to Puchong. I honestly dont appreciate gurls like tht. Even my sister is better than her!! At least my sis dunno really know how to cook but she wont make noise if eating left over food!Cant believe Fat bitch like her trying act rich but she's not at all! PLS la!!! i over heard that her neighbour commented her fr going home so frequent, thn she feedback tht"i Like ar!" Tak Tau Malu!
Y i think its embarassing? first, in law will think that she's not well thought by parents of this simple manner that she's married. whether she's used to it o like it o not she should b patience n behave! N should not complain or pretend very pity! N then start going home all the time.N Hw mom oso another 1, agree on her actions! I think my mom nvr pamper us like tht coz she wants us t b disciplines! I only remember my mom says, padan muka, ask u learn tht time dunwan, now dunno only know how to make noise!1 reality thing that is my parent nvr think their children is right 1st but always investigate or advice us instead of agreeing o supporting our negative behaviour. If i complain on smthg, my parents will say "izit u done smthg tht causes this issue happen" I really know why my parent dicipline me like tht...there's a reason n now i really appreciate wht they have thought me...
Now i feel better after bitching all Nk bad stuffs! GUd NIte... it's 3am ady...
Monday, June 25, 2007
Office Meeting
Another 1 1/2 hour i will have to attend the shit meeting! Seeing all those bitches... i really cant wait for my industrial training, thn soon i dun have to work PT, worrying this n that, worry not enuf money to use, worry when i got to b sent to another stupid unfortunate area, makes me got ZERO sales for 2days! I was lucky that Apple gave me 2sales this month that ended up 30bottles (RM300).
It was a boring Sunday, cpz me n Hw stays at home doin nothing. he do his asgmt n i prepare my own schedule.Major reason, no $$! both of us can declare bakruptcy ady... he's not working now, thts y no money, me finish all my money just bcoz of last month got to settle some room fees!! Damn!
i dunno wht to write now, NK is coming for dinner later, i wonder y she wanna get married if she loves to go home all the time, she should know the rules, once married, she cant b going home everyday only once a week. if i'm her in law i would think she's disrespect, n no manner, not well educated by their parents! everytime come back wif empty hands...
It was a boring Sunday, cpz me n Hw stays at home doin nothing. he do his asgmt n i prepare my own schedule.Major reason, no $$! both of us can declare bakruptcy ady... he's not working now, thts y no money, me finish all my money just bcoz of last month got to settle some room fees!! Damn!
i dunno wht to write now, NK is coming for dinner later, i wonder y she wanna get married if she loves to go home all the time, she should know the rules, once married, she cant b going home everyday only once a week. if i'm her in law i would think she's disrespect, n no manner, not well educated by their parents! everytime come back wif empty hands...
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
ResuLts OuT
FinAlly, the most terrifying n High blood pressure rising day is here. LAst nite, i din manage sleep properly, i cried last nite n i dun even know why. I suddenly recall back all my childhood days, it was an unforgettable moments. I was asking myself whether I was lucky or it was a tender givings from the Heaven...I hope all this can come to the end.I hope that 1day i could throw all this sadness behind n walk freely with new life.
I struggle badly this few days, i had alot imaginations, sounds like unstable emotional situation (short term:Psychology prob) I think not too serious yet coz i still can define all my imaginery properly, But the bomb still will blast.
Well, result annouced today. Did not expect it was so good... escpecially my Comm Law n Ethics - Grade A, InT. Mktg Comm - Grade A and Comm Strategies - Grade A. Unexpected! Thank GOD!
But there's one thing i wanna pray, I hope my mom n dad will love each other forever, a small dusty dirt will not leave any stain. I hope they will not keep any small issue in heart that will cause breakage....i'm worried.
HOPE is what i've carried through my life, n will bring it all de way...
HOPE bring me stronger, HOPE shows me the shine of light...
I'll share it with all my lovings,
through, within, along and moving on my path of life...I never put on hold my with HOPE,
Bcoz of HOPE i could stand stronger n believes that everday is a new life!
I struggle badly this few days, i had alot imaginations, sounds like unstable emotional situation (short term:Psychology prob) I think not too serious yet coz i still can define all my imaginery properly, But the bomb still will blast.
Well, result annouced today. Did not expect it was so good... escpecially my Comm Law n Ethics - Grade A, InT. Mktg Comm - Grade A and Comm Strategies - Grade A. Unexpected! Thank GOD!
But there's one thing i wanna pray, I hope my mom n dad will love each other forever, a small dusty dirt will not leave any stain. I hope they will not keep any small issue in heart that will cause breakage....i'm worried.
HOPE is what i've carried through my life, n will bring it all de way...
HOPE bring me stronger, HOPE shows me the shine of light...
I'll share it with all my lovings,
through, within, along and moving on my path of life...I never put on hold my with HOPE,
Bcoz of HOPE i could stand stronger n believes that everday is a new life!
Sunday, June 17, 2007
JuSt AnothEr Day
Finally this week ended! Just came back from work, immediately i took Billie's Modem to get online, wanted to spare so much time with my blog... chatted wif Billie a while, showing her some of penny's picture n also pinky's picture. There is a huge change on Pinky.
Dunno what happen to m'sia weather, rained for whole night...from noon till midnight. I was caught in rain while working in Rum Jungle! What a place to search for Tarzan n Jane...Songs was suck n the people are all old fagged~ I really miss my Thai Club days...though alone without many sales but people are apparently nice n not under pressured! But thank God i got sales, n Evon was nice that she handed me an extra sales. BUt never trust a person by its cover, enuf of that ady...
I messaged my lecturer today, n he said that the highest results for communication strategies is B...Then? This means i probably will at the safe mode frequency only? Pls...If this happen my CPGA will drop to hell! That will disaappoint my dad... I really pray hard that everything will b fine...
Its already Sun, sleeping soon, nowhere to go.Most likely will collect my Doink car n then visit my dad a while, thn go back college or howard's house. Wanted to watch Shrek 3!Argh~! No one wanna watch with me!!!
Dunno what happen to m'sia weather, rained for whole night...from noon till midnight. I was caught in rain while working in Rum Jungle! What a place to search for Tarzan n Jane...Songs was suck n the people are all old fagged~ I really miss my Thai Club days...though alone without many sales but people are apparently nice n not under pressured! But thank God i got sales, n Evon was nice that she handed me an extra sales. BUt never trust a person by its cover, enuf of that ady...
I messaged my lecturer today, n he said that the highest results for communication strategies is B...Then? This means i probably will at the safe mode frequency only? Pls...If this happen my CPGA will drop to hell! That will disaappoint my dad... I really pray hard that everything will b fine...
Its already Sun, sleeping soon, nowhere to go.Most likely will collect my Doink car n then visit my dad a while, thn go back college or howard's house. Wanted to watch Shrek 3!Argh~! No one wanna watch with me!!!
Saturday, June 16, 2007
Workin Day...
Today was just an ordinary day, wake up...eat n thn work. I was sent to work at Jarrod & Rawlins at damansara height. Nice environment n standard ppl there...but din manage to get a single bottle coz everyone was drinking Red wine, White Wine, or beer. C'mon !If i'm the customer i wont think of having whiskey at there, J&R is such a nice place to relax n chat...n not to get drunk! I wonder how the management strategize their target market, its not conquering the outlet but oso distrubutions.
If i have enuf cash i would find a place like J&R to have my dinner ;0
Dad is sick, i'm so worry bout him but too bad i got to work n i cant talk for long... will have to see him tomolo coz i m worry of his blood pressure! GOD, pls spare more time for my parents as they r my guardian angels n they have clean sins in them... may they see me graduating n have happy family...Amen!
If i have enuf cash i would find a place like J&R to have my dinner ;0
Dad is sick, i'm so worry bout him but too bad i got to work n i cant talk for long... will have to see him tomolo coz i m worry of his blood pressure! GOD, pls spare more time for my parents as they r my guardian angels n they have clean sins in them... may they see me graduating n have happy family...Amen!
Friday, June 15, 2007
~EmOtioNaLY rEtaRdTeD~
These few days, i have gone through few things in life. A new chapter everyday. I miss my blog so much cooz i don know who to turn tell about all my sensitivity feelings, here in me... I spoke to Pinky the other day, i told her to b careful with Penny coz sometimes she will backstab her, i dont know if she would believe wht i say or just entertaining me as she still thinks that Penny is her close frens. But i just dont want Pinky felt stupid n like a fool in the end of the reveals...
I manage to handle the room problems, but i find uncomfortbale with my present feelings. I felt something wrong and something huntig me, i know no one would believe what i'm trying to say, expected answers like : u think too much. no such thihngs, nonsense bla bla bla are the feedbacks. I start to realise i have no frens in heart, no true frens around. Mayb its my payback time of wht i've done to PK. I felt stupid n regret for such nonsense. Few times i almost got into accident, but manage to skipped, i felt lucky but lucky come n go...my die will return.
Mayb i'm having serious emotional psychology situation here. Today, i chat with dad n i relaise an old man like him still have much worries even though i'm graduating soon. he's having trauma with his photography business. It does not belong to him but...he's working hard for it n everyone n for living. Now, i dunno if i should stay with my path n move on with my dream or take a lift to next junction turn. It's tough coz no one wiilling to help! All OLD BASKETs in the shop stand n sit n held their palms for salary! How i wish the shop closes now!!! BUt dad says NO coz this will increase seriousness of his sick! I don know how to start my steps to help him now, but I really want to help to stabilize his biz, 1st person i will kick will be my small uncle, doing nothing but getting equal salary PLUS having bad habits n demoralizing everyone!!
Just few minutes back, i saw some of the Frens pictures n i saw penny with Derek,all my negative aura spread from my bottom to top n i wonder when i will release it. If it is not me who help Penny, she wont have any single chance to Hold Gucci bags or sit damn nice fucking car now! the most : Yaris that was cheated back. She never even thank me for what i've done n avoiding me! SLUTS! If i tell Derek now that all this while i was helping her, n all this while when she was with him she was fucked by another guy, i think that would be the best grammy award show i could watch! But My inner says no for what i thought! I wonder Y i'm still so stupid?! GOD, Please show me a way i could walk with all my doubts, n by the end of path i'm done with al this hatreous n tragedies...
I manage to handle the room problems, but i find uncomfortbale with my present feelings. I felt something wrong and something huntig me, i know no one would believe what i'm trying to say, expected answers like : u think too much. no such thihngs, nonsense bla bla bla are the feedbacks. I start to realise i have no frens in heart, no true frens around. Mayb its my payback time of wht i've done to PK. I felt stupid n regret for such nonsense. Few times i almost got into accident, but manage to skipped, i felt lucky but lucky come n go...my die will return.
Mayb i'm having serious emotional psychology situation here. Today, i chat with dad n i relaise an old man like him still have much worries even though i'm graduating soon. he's having trauma with his photography business. It does not belong to him but...he's working hard for it n everyone n for living. Now, i dunno if i should stay with my path n move on with my dream or take a lift to next junction turn. It's tough coz no one wiilling to help! All OLD BASKETs in the shop stand n sit n held their palms for salary! How i wish the shop closes now!!! BUt dad says NO coz this will increase seriousness of his sick! I don know how to start my steps to help him now, but I really want to help to stabilize his biz, 1st person i will kick will be my small uncle, doing nothing but getting equal salary PLUS having bad habits n demoralizing everyone!!
Just few minutes back, i saw some of the Frens pictures n i saw penny with Derek,all my negative aura spread from my bottom to top n i wonder when i will release it. If it is not me who help Penny, she wont have any single chance to Hold Gucci bags or sit damn nice fucking car now! the most : Yaris that was cheated back. She never even thank me for what i've done n avoiding me! SLUTS! If i tell Derek now that all this while i was helping her, n all this while when she was with him she was fucked by another guy, i think that would be the best grammy award show i could watch! But My inner says no for what i thought! I wonder Y i'm still so stupid?! GOD, Please show me a way i could walk with all my doubts, n by the end of path i'm done with al this hatreous n tragedies...
Monday, June 11, 2007
You Have A Type A- Personality |
You are one of the most balanced people around Motivated and focused, you are good at getting what you want You rule at success, but success doesn't rule you. When it's playtime, you really know how to kick back Whether it's hanging out with friends or doing something you love! You live life to the fullest - encorporating the best of both worlds |
| Your Rising Sign is Libra |
 Irresistable and attractive, you have no shortage of love interests. Totally competitive, you tend to thrive in stressful enviroments. A peaceful soul, you avoid conflict at almost all costs. Sometimes you try too hard to please those around you. But you have a great inner strength that helps you bounce back easily. |
आफ्टर Exam
My एक्षम् इस ओवर बुत ई फेल्ट लिके तेरे इस सोमेथिंग इन मय हार्ट ऎंड ई फील उन्कोम्फोर्ताब्ले विथ इत। आफ्टर मय एक्षम्, ई रुष बैक तो हॉवर्ड'एस हौसे तो रेस्ट फ़ॉर अ व्हिले बेफोरे थे निघ्त पर्त्य। बुत अ रेस्ट वास नॉट अ रेस्ट काज एवेर्योने काम तो हिस हौसे कुइते एअर्ल्य ऎंड ई नीद तो रेतुर्न्स मय डैड'एस कार। इन थे निघ्त एवेर्योने अर्रिवेद बुत ई फेल्ट सिक माय्बे ऑफ़ मय स्लीप्लेस निघ्त। थाट्स वास अ फ्रिदय सो ई नीद तो वर्क। ई फेल्ट बोरिंग मय जॉब अल्रेअडी। ई डोंट क्नोव व्ह्य, ई जुस्त फेल्ट तिरेड ऎंड उसेलेस बुत थिस जॉब रेअल्ल्य हेल्प्स मे अलोत इन मय फिनान्सिअल । ई कीप तेल्लिंग म्य्सेल्फ़ ठाट ई हवे अनोठेर १०मोत्न्ह्स् तो गो। ई फेल्ट देमोतिवातेद व्हें मय बॉस सैद ठाट ई वास नॉट हेल्पिंग हिम तो तके कारे थे ओउत्लेत, ई हेल्पेद सो मुच उन्तिल ई गावे उप! बुत नो वन क्नोव्स। सो मान्य कोम्प्लैंट्स काम फ्रॉम थे वेद्नेस्दय ऎंड थ्रुस्दय्स सर्विस अरे बद, ई नेवर एवें पंत प्वाइंट अन्योने,जुस्त कोन्तिनुए लिविंग। बुत ई गोट थे बलम! रेअल्ल्य फुक उप!
ई अत्तेंदेद निक्की'एस वेद्दिंग डिनर बुत वन थिंग ई रेअलिसे ठाट ई वास नोथिंग स्पेशल ओं ठाट निघ्त, नॉट स्पेशल इन अन्योने'एस एयेस। ई दीद प्रेत्त्य तो म्य्सेल्फ़ नॉट तो गेट एक्स्ट्रा अत्तेंशन बुत तो गेट रेस्पेच्त ठाट ई ऍम हॉवर्ड'एस गिर्ल्फ्रिएंद। पीपुल लूकिंग अत मे अस इफ एक्ष्प्रेस्सिन्ग् थेइर क्रितिच्स। होप ठाट ई'म थे वन व्हो इस सेंसिटिव तो इत! इत वास अ द्रेअद्फुल दय फ़ॉर मे, पीपुल त्रेअत मे अस ई वास नॉट एक्षिस्त्स्। ई वास नॉट गिवें एनी अंग पॉव फ़ॉर थे दय नोर थे निघ्त। एवें व्हें ई वास हेल्पिंग अत थे फ्रंट डेस्क ई वास तोताल्ल्य इन्विसिब्ले। फुर्थेर मोरे, ई थौघ्त ऑफ़ मकिंग म्य्सेल्फ़ प्रेत्त्य, इंदेद अत थे सलूं मय ब्यूटी बेकाम उग्ल्य। एवें फ़ेलिक्ष् थौघ्त ठाट मय हेयर वास नॉट दोने! ई वास तोताल्ल्य साद ऎंड दिसापोंतेद ऑफ़ म्य्सेल्फ़। पीपुल कीप प्रैसिंग बिल्ली फ़ॉर हेर हेयर न मके उप वास पेर्फेक्ट्ल्य दोने। ई वास नॉट हेल्पेद ब्य अन्योने। ई जुस्त रेअलिसे ई वास नॉट रेस्पेक्टेद अत अल। ई डोंट क्नोव हाउ लॉन्ग ई कोउल्ड स्टे फ़ॉर लॉन्ग विथ थिस रिलेशनशिप। एवें सोमेतिमेस ई फेल्ट ठाट हिस परेंट्स थिंक ई विल रूं थे फमिल्य सून। ई रेकाल्ल वंस, निक्की सैद ठाट थिंग्स विल चंगे वंस शे मोवेद आउट। बुत हेर कार इस स्टील हियर, वोंदेरिंग इफ शे हद देसिदेद तो पास थिस कार तो बिल्ली ओर शे जुस्त वांट तो पुट इत हियर फर्स्ट।
ई ऍम नॉट द्यिंग फ़ॉर ठाट विओस इट्स जुस्त ठाट ई रेअलिसे हॉवर्ड हस नोथिंग इन हैण्ड एक्ष्केप्त् विओस, ओनली नोव हिस परेंत लेर हिम तो स्तुद्य बुत दीद नॉट गिवे हिम कार तो ड्राइव, ओठेर्स वास फसिलिताते वेल्ल विथ एवेर्य्थिंग थेय नीद, इन ओथेर वोर्द्स, दुम्पेद मोरे कोन्सन्त्रशन ऎंड कैश ओं थेम... ई विष ठाट हॉवर्ड विल स्तुद्य हार्ड ऎंड फाइट फ़ॉर हिस लाइफ, बुत ई वोंत सुरेल्य सय ठाट ई विल बे हिस विफे। ई ऍम उन्देर्प्रेस्सुरेड विथ थिस सितुतियो।
ई अत्तेंदेद निक्की'एस वेद्दिंग डिनर बुत वन थिंग ई रेअलिसे ठाट ई वास नोथिंग स्पेशल ओं ठाट निघ्त, नॉट स्पेशल इन अन्योने'एस एयेस। ई दीद प्रेत्त्य तो म्य्सेल्फ़ नॉट तो गेट एक्स्ट्रा अत्तेंशन बुत तो गेट रेस्पेच्त ठाट ई ऍम हॉवर्ड'एस गिर्ल्फ्रिएंद। पीपुल लूकिंग अत मे अस इफ एक्ष्प्रेस्सिन्ग् थेइर क्रितिच्स। होप ठाट ई'म थे वन व्हो इस सेंसिटिव तो इत! इत वास अ द्रेअद्फुल दय फ़ॉर मे, पीपुल त्रेअत मे अस ई वास नॉट एक्षिस्त्स्। ई वास नॉट गिवें एनी अंग पॉव फ़ॉर थे दय नोर थे निघ्त। एवें व्हें ई वास हेल्पिंग अत थे फ्रंट डेस्क ई वास तोताल्ल्य इन्विसिब्ले। फुर्थेर मोरे, ई थौघ्त ऑफ़ मकिंग म्य्सेल्फ़ प्रेत्त्य, इंदेद अत थे सलूं मय ब्यूटी बेकाम उग्ल्य। एवें फ़ेलिक्ष् थौघ्त ठाट मय हेयर वास नॉट दोने! ई वास तोताल्ल्य साद ऎंड दिसापोंतेद ऑफ़ म्य्सेल्फ़। पीपुल कीप प्रैसिंग बिल्ली फ़ॉर हेर हेयर न मके उप वास पेर्फेक्ट्ल्य दोने। ई वास नॉट हेल्पेद ब्य अन्योने। ई जुस्त रेअलिसे ई वास नॉट रेस्पेक्टेद अत अल। ई डोंट क्नोव हाउ लॉन्ग ई कोउल्ड स्टे फ़ॉर लॉन्ग विथ थिस रिलेशनशिप। एवें सोमेतिमेस ई फेल्ट ठाट हिस परेंट्स थिंक ई विल रूं थे फमिल्य सून। ई रेकाल्ल वंस, निक्की सैद ठाट थिंग्स विल चंगे वंस शे मोवेद आउट। बुत हेर कार इस स्टील हियर, वोंदेरिंग इफ शे हद देसिदेद तो पास थिस कार तो बिल्ली ओर शे जुस्त वांट तो पुट इत हियर फर्स्ट।
ई ऍम नॉट द्यिंग फ़ॉर ठाट विओस इट्स जुस्त ठाट ई रेअलिसे हॉवर्ड हस नोथिंग इन हैण्ड एक्ष्केप्त् विओस, ओनली नोव हिस परेंत लेर हिम तो स्तुद्य बुत दीद नॉट गिवे हिम कार तो ड्राइव, ओठेर्स वास फसिलिताते वेल्ल विथ एवेर्य्थिंग थेय नीद, इन ओथेर वोर्द्स, दुम्पेद मोरे कोन्सन्त्रशन ऎंड कैश ओं थेम... ई विष ठाट हॉवर्ड विल स्तुद्य हार्ड ऎंड फाइट फ़ॉर हिस लाइफ, बुत ई वोंत सुरेल्य सय ठाट ई विल बे हिस विफे। ई ऍम उन्देर्प्रेस्सुरेड विथ थिस सितुतियो।
Wednesday, June 6, 2007
hOw tO fEEL Bout InsAniTy
Life is so scary...u never know when u sleep forever o die when u passes the road. i think its reasonable that if there is something that causes the incident, when GOD need u to b at his side... But it's scary when i think bout my death fall to my Uni's palm! i had so much to complain bout their system, their coordination, their management n oso professionalism!
From day 1 i never love this college, jst for sick of the course! I think thats how they make use of their program, attracting ppl to sign up thn giving such stupid manner to the students! They had forgotten that WE, the students, pays their salaries!! Without students, they could sit back o go to hell! Having the name of University College n approve by ISO, i wonder if the government are blind mice or got RASUAH! This rural college environment, no public transportation, no variety of food for non-muslims and NO RESPECT from the management if ever pay fees late, especially the accomodaiton!! the securities are racists! if u r chinese, never think of staying in the hostel coz u will blindly see the other cultures go out freely n u be blocked n asked to go back to ur damn room! I remembered they say to me: unless u sick till u going to die thn V will get the ambulance. on that moment, i was really sick to death, i advice them to buy me coffin then!
K***C is not worth for ppl to invest their future if the courses are available anywhere else. U never get to study properly before the exam, due to Kampong Boy's attitude, shouting n running everywhere. The management LOVES to create EXTRA pressure to students right before the exams! Whether they wanna evacuate the room for not paying or for not registering my name into their fucking file, whereas i already registered, there's this old lady loves to make extra truble n never learn how to be courteous! Whenever they think they want to do their stuffs they just move on without considering students health or students feelings. I cant wait to graduate n leave this horrible place!! i dun wanna stay another minute for it...But i'll misses the lecturer coz they are dedicated to their work, always so helpful! not just a lecturer but good listener as well... i think that is the only best thing i could elaborate in this so called UNIVERSITY COLLEGE!!!
From day 1 i never love this college, jst for sick of the course! I think thats how they make use of their program, attracting ppl to sign up thn giving such stupid manner to the students! They had forgotten that WE, the students, pays their salaries!! Without students, they could sit back o go to hell! Having the name of University College n approve by ISO, i wonder if the government are blind mice or got RASUAH! This rural college environment, no public transportation, no variety of food for non-muslims and NO RESPECT from the management if ever pay fees late, especially the accomodaiton!! the securities are racists! if u r chinese, never think of staying in the hostel coz u will blindly see the other cultures go out freely n u be blocked n asked to go back to ur damn room! I remembered they say to me: unless u sick till u going to die thn V will get the ambulance. on that moment, i was really sick to death, i advice them to buy me coffin then!
K***C is not worth for ppl to invest their future if the courses are available anywhere else. U never get to study properly before the exam, due to Kampong Boy's attitude, shouting n running everywhere. The management LOVES to create EXTRA pressure to students right before the exams! Whether they wanna evacuate the room for not paying or for not registering my name into their fucking file, whereas i already registered, there's this old lady loves to make extra truble n never learn how to be courteous! Whenever they think they want to do their stuffs they just move on without considering students health or students feelings. I cant wait to graduate n leave this horrible place!! i dun wanna stay another minute for it...But i'll misses the lecturer coz they are dedicated to their work, always so helpful! not just a lecturer but good listener as well... i think that is the only best thing i could elaborate in this so called UNIVERSITY COLLEGE!!!
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